It's the Climb.

Good Morning! It's amazing what a good nights sleep can do for your mood. I got in bed at a decent hour and I feel so much better now. But anyhow let's get back to the good stuff eh? Yesterday I told you about my husband and his affair and catching him with my best friend. That was one of the worst moments in my life my heart was broken.

The crazy thing is I was more upset at her than him. She had been my best friend for so long and I always knew that I could count on her. I would have laid my life down for that woman without a second thought. She was the sister I never had and in a instant it was all gone.

My other friends and family often ask me how I can still talk to her after that. Truth is I don't know. Maybe part of me doesn't want to let go of what used to be there. But the truth is I don't feel the way I used to. Before this I wanted to share every moment every detail of my life with her... Now I barely say hello anymore.

It hurt me so bad to know she had betrayed me like that. For the longest I was Angry I wanted to scream and cry and hit something. But after awhile I just felt numb and I still do. I told myself I would never be hurt by anyone like I was by those two. Even now when I think about that night I feel a tug on my heart strings. I wish somehow I could go back and change it but I can't.

Maybe it was for the best. Maybe I needed to see what I did to toughen my skin so to speak. Even though my husband and I are still together I don't think I have ever truly forgiven him, and I don't know that I ever will. I certainly can't forget.

I have gotten over the other woman. But the second time wasn't just any woman it was the person I called my best friend. The person I cried to. The person I told my deepest fears and he took that away from me. I had no one I could trust or turn to anymore he had taken it all from me and she didn't stop him. So in my eyes I was alone and I didn't like being alone.

So after that we eventually got over it and I let him come home. Things didn't get easy fast but eventually I got over it enough to live our lives. So that brings us to present day. Whew felt good to get that off my chest. Although it doesn't erase it but at this point I don't want it erased. These are the things that make me who I am. I know that with a little effort and the good grace of God I can make it through anything and I plan to.

I think I have mentioned this already but I will leave you with it once again. I read a quote that I love and plan to keep in mind everyday as I live my life.

Life is not about waiting out the storm, but learning the dance in the rain....

So if you get the chance I hope you dance.