So today was the day. Today we said Goodbye to Eddie for good, and it was hard. It was a very rough day but it was good to finally get it all done and over. I cried all the way through the service and the tears flowed like a river when I put my hand on his and told him goodbye for the last time.
The service was very nice but all too painful. I believe that the dead can hear us and can feel our love and I believe that Eddie was watching over all of us today as we said our Goodbyes, so for the rest of the night I vowed to try and smile because I know he wouldn't have wanted us all crying and mourning. So I did exactly that I talked about positive memories and I sang old songs and even laughed a little.
After the service I headed to work, we had a decent night it was long and the thought of him lingered everywhere but a Energy drink and a few songs sung out loud later we were telling jokes and giggling again.
It felt so good to smile and laugh. The people I work with are so great and I love everyone of them to pieces, and ever since we lost Eddie I have made it a point to make sure they all know that I care for them.
We aren't promised tomorrow and I don't want any regrets when I go I want to know that all the people I love knew it. I want to live every moment as if it were my last. I want my children to know that Mommy loved them more than life itself.
Okay so enough sappy sadness. It's time to perk up and live life. It's too short as I have been reminded. Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully a good one.
My little ones are coming back from a week spent with their aunt and I can't wait to hold my babies I have missed them like crazy. I can't wait for the weekend so I can spend all day with them. So I better call it a night and get some sleep!
-Candeh
The service was very nice but all too painful. I believe that the dead can hear us and can feel our love and I believe that Eddie was watching over all of us today as we said our Goodbyes, so for the rest of the night I vowed to try and smile because I know he wouldn't have wanted us all crying and mourning. So I did exactly that I talked about positive memories and I sang old songs and even laughed a little.
After the service I headed to work, we had a decent night it was long and the thought of him lingered everywhere but a Energy drink and a few songs sung out loud later we were telling jokes and giggling again.
It felt so good to smile and laugh. The people I work with are so great and I love everyone of them to pieces, and ever since we lost Eddie I have made it a point to make sure they all know that I care for them.
We aren't promised tomorrow and I don't want any regrets when I go I want to know that all the people I love knew it. I want to live every moment as if it were my last. I want my children to know that Mommy loved them more than life itself.
Okay so enough sappy sadness. It's time to perk up and live life. It's too short as I have been reminded. Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully a good one.
My little ones are coming back from a week spent with their aunt and I can't wait to hold my babies I have missed them like crazy. I can't wait for the weekend so I can spend all day with them. So I better call it a night and get some sleep!
-Candeh
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I hope you are ok. Reading shit like this even depresses me.
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